jeeeez ohhhhh

Well where to start.......i dont like the way things are atm just everything seems shite to me.
i honestly couldnt care about anything these days, there is one thing but im not going into that now. I just want things to back to the way they were ken ? when i wasnt an arsehole. i can honestly say the way i feel like not a sole would miss me if i died.. pritty emo likes aha im weird.

im not going to dwell on this insted im going to do something to change the way i am atm , i dont know what but i need to do something rather drastic at that. Why am i suddenly super self concious again ? oi just managed to get past that awkward stage and i realised i was even worried about what i was eating the other day.... i mean wtf that isnt me is it?

Fuck it ae ... i mean who gies a shit. i think im just going to do whatever i feel like regardless of peoples feelings. because im in a constant state in self pitty and its stupid. i think the relentless tour will help, i really want to go an go in some pitts. i managed to save money insted of eating so ive like £9 or something haha im like pritty much there.

idk it was more mindless shite im talking on this blog... still geez some thoughts or that?