Say Goodnight.

Ken recently i though things couldnt get much worse... but ken spoke to soon likes ae?
found out some additional information about the Relentless tour which pisses me off to no end.
better hope i never see that guy btw. But aye i dont think you realise it did really bother me and i ken it didnt mean anythings crap, because you never spoke he pulled your arm ect. yet you changed phone numbers ? but nah you obv werni texting him or that.

Skool... well where to start my attendence is awful im failing everything and its parents night soon, reports are coming out and im probs getting suspended for getting "cought" smoking again, my dads gonni batter me. I just want to leave like i dont want to do anything anymore. ive just given up like on just about everything, whats the point anymore ? so aye i plan to continue doing what i am the now , with abit more booze though. Im shattered and hungry but i cba going and getting something , i guess it`ll go away soon if i ignore. i thought i was going to faint in chemistry pfft total eyes blured out and shit was freaky. Managed to copy out that unit i missed yuss only two periods tae ;D score.

thats about all had a good wee winge now... catch yee

how we operate

well ive been think alot recently..... My life has if anything has less direction now that ever, im not even sure if ive to go to college now =/. Also everyday just seems like a mission to get to the end of im just trying to scrape by untill i can get something good the problem is i dont know what. It gets you down like and i know im not the only one going through this shit.

so aye last night- Kerrang Relentless tour.

Well left skool got changed walked back up (52 mins baybeeee) aha i was rather chuffed, so aye me Hadi,Alex and Matt got a lift uptoon of Hadi`s maw blah blah town+ drink+ train= Glasgow, got steaming headed to the gig, Matt Smack Steven and me where ready to jump someone for my ticket but luckily some guy sold me his....waited in the que matt almost got lifted AGAIN fucking kids these days btw aha.

Aye so me an smack hit the pub for a tad to wait for the que to go down.... gid idea ae?
awww naw , got to the door to be told we`re too drunk to get in? despite the fact i wasnt that bad and i seen them letting a lassie in that could barely walk aye? Then if that wasnt annoying enough nicole tried to get ryan and i in twice... first time she was told that we`d been taking drugs and had been tested haha then that we had fake tickets and i had two i used matts one haha so aye smackmanee and Matt got turned away too. so ken we did what any other moron in that situationwe hassled the security for a cheeky wee 5 hours or soemthing, actually to be fair i think i enjoyed pissing off the security and runing from the police abit more than i would have the gig , the bands where all shitty anyway. I did feel rather terrible afterwards though the alcohol had worn off ages ago i hadnt eaten since the day before and the fags made me feel worse. awck well how gies a shit i still had a laugh.

aye so i dont even know what kind of mood im in. its just kind of like there aye. i wish i could do something to take my mind off it, i want to go for a skate actually its been ages but its too cold and i miss the park. i wish i could have seen hannah tonight like but ken again nothing really goes to plan does it ?

thats about all thats going on atm..
catch ye. and oh yeahh Corals a total babe ;D haha

I Was Made For Lovin` You Babyyy (8)

i quite fancy kiss btw =) they`re gid likes
well todays festivities......
Skool (kinda)
got drunk ;D
met hannah at ami`s mums haha shes a babe and Wee dani came too = )
i spent ages in the bathroom feeling total seeeeek, still never whited (ami cheered for me cheeky bitch haha)
got to see hannah the night was well gid, Ive not seen her in like a week.
i cant help but feel a tad annoyed though , she feels bad about something some i couldnt really care less about and it still bothers her, i just wish she wouldnt care either. she should really chillaxe mare likes.

well plans for tomorrow include hardly any skool... AGAIN seeing as ive been dropped from maths paha although i was kinda begging for it and then like finish my wine XD aha should be good.

also tbh it feels like my self esteems hit rock bottom =S
idk why i dont care anymore though.
soo aye catch likes......

jeeeez ohhhhh

Well where to start.......i dont like the way things are atm just everything seems shite to me.
i honestly couldnt care about anything these days, there is one thing but im not going into that now. I just want things to back to the way they were ken ? when i wasnt an arsehole. i can honestly say the way i feel like not a sole would miss me if i died.. pritty emo likes aha im weird.

im not going to dwell on this insted im going to do something to change the way i am atm , i dont know what but i need to do something rather drastic at that. Why am i suddenly super self concious again ? oi just managed to get past that awkward stage and i realised i was even worried about what i was eating the other day.... i mean wtf that isnt me is it?

Fuck it ae ... i mean who gies a shit. i think im just going to do whatever i feel like regardless of peoples feelings. because im in a constant state in self pitty and its stupid. i think the relentless tour will help, i really want to go an go in some pitts. i managed to save money insted of eating so ive like £9 or something haha im like pritty much there.

idk it was more mindless shite im talking on this blog... still geez some thoughts or that?

jake jake jakeyyyyy

ive decided im going to keep growing my hair and see what happens... i like long hair i can hide my face with it aha.

i wish i was better at chemisty........

im considering going to the renlentless tour, i would but i dont think i`ll be able to get 15 quid anytime soon =/ pritty shit but im used to i wasnt i was never exspencing to tbh.

ive not much to say tonight tbh =/ im a moron.
i hope i get my fone topped up soon.

catch

Alone , with nothing but your thoughts

I`d quite like it sometime if i could spend a weekend myself in somewhere like alaska. I like spending time alone to think about things you know get away form stress an such also its then in which you come out with your most philosophical thoughs and have have time to really think about important thinks you dont usually have time to because of busy routines. Perhaps i could even wirte a book or a journal type thing, not even to sell but to keep for the sentimental value.

It would be pritty amazing to try and live off the land with hardly anything. It would truely be a test of character and help you find yourself... well so to speak, all these thoughs bung up in your head you know ? and you never have anywhere to present it in text. In my mind it would make more sense spending a few weeks to possibly change my entire outlook on life, but in my mind im not sure if i could cope. Still i think it would be good to have no direction or thought about where to go just you and yourself to accompany you on a journey of self discovery.

Tonight- Was amazing , little dry during the day but not to bad in general i suppose. I went to hannahs tonight and i dont know how she does it... she can put me in a better mood than anyone, it doesnt matter to me what were doing aslong as im with her its fine by me. I love the nights like these where we put on a film dont watch it and just lie with each other. I do look foreward to them. Tonight you also gave me a couple of wee texts before i got home, they made me feel special ken? i dont get that alot but it really did put a smile on my face. I love you.

but aye peace out.....

the 10th- Yesterday was pritty gid like , i went uptoon kicked about with Andy , Rory and Leah-anne it wasnt too bad wondered about and met g-ham at tesco. Went and got Hannah bit more floating about town, then to hannahs hoose. Got a row off hannahs dad for her smoking in her room aha she blamed me which is what i would have told her to do.

Went to the party , it was quite intimadating tbh plus the fact i cant dance made me feel like a complete arse.. still i love spending time with hannah , the night was going pritty well an all we went a walk and talked a bit , fiddled with that bastardin` camera =L all in all a good night.

Came hame around 12.30 managed to not let my parents see though , so i went round to smackmanees , wee chris and a create of tennants where there. when i arrived they were watching a film the Cottage or as smack says a Horidy comma XD hes a tool haha
what did confuse me though was the amount of banter the three of us managed to get from one okay magazine paha, we all stood around it in the kitchen and made joke after joke each one more funny that the other. Then sadly i had to go home but the majority of beer had been drunk and we sqawbbled over fags aha. Now there point i feel like i ruined the day , i said a few silly things because im quite an arsehole... i ended up quite upsetting hannah. And ken i just want to appoligise to you tbh im so sorry for the way ive been latly ive just caused stupid arguments over issues of actual no importance.

I just hope that you can put up with me untill i can learn whats a stupid fucking thing to say. because everyone know that nomis is completely useless with women. so i just want to say sorry and i`ll get better like. i promise. and ken see if i do start a petty argument just tell me to fuck off like....

But aye today wasnt bad arsed about the house mostly , Hannah, Nicole, Dionne, Jamie and Smackmanee came over watched some tv blah blahh folk left spent some time with hannah was nice =)

I wish everyones problems would disappear, i know someones really upset the now and its pritty wide like , i hope your alright btw =) and im sorry im not good with conversations aken you must find it a struggle to have feelings for me but hang on ? , i think this week is going to be tuff tbh i dont know why, i just hope i get to see Hannah more than i did last week, shes the only thing that keeps me going like. And eveyone must know that connor is a genious he was telling me about this secret plan earlier and its like WOW , he such a babe =D haha

aye man catch

Today was shit mannn
walked up with Ricky this morning hes going for the scottish title and asked me to go , i think i shall rickys pritty sound likes.

But aye man i failed my maths prelim, and i bet any money ive bombed in english too. I dont have the bottle to tell my dad i think he`d hit me this time likes, the parents have been in quite a mood with me lately. who cares ae... Skools such a waste of my time like, im honeslty just trying to make it through each day now its soo bad, the only things i look foreward to are my next fag, bottle of wine or chance to see hannah. Rather petty sounding perhaps but im desprite for a job.

Ive also noticed i get the blame in my house for most things that go wrong, i mean ive eaten next to nothing this week no joke, ive eaten like 3 bags of crisps and four sandwiches and like a few bit of toast , but wait "simon you`ve eaten all the bread" there where two loafs on the conter thats off there was me thinking i hadnt eaten that much clearly noo.

Tonight wasnt okay though i spose, me an nicole had a bit ae banter seeing as someone was more interested with his xbox aha, it was a good laugh though. Id also like to mention Ema Harris she helped me out big time this week =) we had a big heart to heart and it helped me alot <3 thanks Ema.

aye man catch......

" A Real Funny Bugger Lives Here"

Aye so taday wasnt bad.
skool was pritty fun the periods i did go.
Chemisty was well gid banter as per haha plus it was tea day ;D
Fitbaw was gid, eventhough our team lost it was only 4 a side like so...
I said to my dad that i didnt feel well and come hame at lunch with smack.

Everyones got soo many problems latey and mine are stupid because it just me being a moron.
i wish i could help folk with there problems , truth is im rather shitty at advice giving.
the only thing im actually good at it would seem is giving folk banter ken something to laugh at.
even still im not that funny.

aye soo catch

"Pain is weakness leaving the body"

Man shite day really, i cant seem to get my head around whats going on with you.Fair enough i seem like a dick because im not there for you but i phisically cant be , if you wilni tell me what wrong with you. so im afriad there nothing i can really do or say untill you tell me what your thinking so on... It also feels like your getting more distant from me. All i get from you is "doesnt matter , mmm"

but aye ive really just lazed about the day, even though my mum went an woke me up at fucking 9, anotherthing parents are fucking arseholes do they never ken when to just shut the fuck up? god there soo annoying.

I got a surprise visit from Wilson today aha not that i had much choice, he kinda insisted upon coming over, didnt bother me though , i just canni really be arsed with shit today =/

someone like turn my night around and gee me banter?
i could really do with Nadine , Lucy or Chloe being online tae =/
i like talking to them they always have something helpful to say.
so anyone..... ?

aye catch

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Today.... Wasnt really all that interesting tbh, I got woken up at 10 "to get back into the way of it for skool" but ken there actual fuck all point in me going back, plus i told all teachers i`d left at christmas =/ oww its going to be rather awkward. Anyways it got good tonight at like 7 when hannah arrived i was quite worried to begin with but it was stupid of me. Im think i managed to cheer her up abit, although shona and chloe where seemingly doing well =) I really do love her and we had a really good heart to heart early this morning and it made me feel really good about myself. She can make me happier than anyone else like.

I think ive finally made up with shona... ken i still feel bad about what happened but i think its water under the bridge now which is good. Im glad your mature about it btw =)


"Enough with the foreplay what are you sellin` "
" That would make you a pedofile , and im going to be damed if im going to stand here and listen to that ,pervert."

i love Family Guy btw haha.
it was also beastin how Die Hard was on too
aye catch =)

Cought in the crossfire?

Fucking hell , rough night? a bit of an understatement
i cant help but fell responsible for everyone falling out ,

It was me who made Shona and Dionne fall out because ima twat which inturn made Shona and Hannah fall out as they where best pals.. so aye stripped Shona of her two best pals it would seem ae.... then i helped Jamie and Dionne get back together which would seem like its just fucked up Dionne and Hannah.

Plus now folk are telling me shit- likes whos to blame, well ken problem solved ae

I feel like i just wreck shit cant everyone all like team up and like fall out with me?
ken that sounds stupid it`d make me feel better like.

Cought in the crossfire?

Ayeeeeee mannnnnnnn

mmm idk really, ive been told i should get one of these.
I think it might help me express whats going on, stuff annoys me alot and i cant really talk about them without causing a fuss.
I feel useless tbh i cant seem to do anything like, i have no job , my parents are annoyed at me still, they have no trust for me what so ever. its annoying me allot like.

Also im also clueless about what to do about you , ken ive fallen for you but i cant seem to last long without making you upset or helping you when you are upset which to me makes me feel like quite a tool. I wish you would talk to me more =/

But aye today wasnt bad , got my drink fairly quickly . cheers dave (y)(y)
and kicked about toon for a bit, met a few of the boys ive no seen in a while.
and got crunk aha like me an Nicole planned , but latly it seem like a bad idea as im telling people things i shouldnt such as Smackmanee and Hannah. Im considering quitting for a while. Well gid banter up spot , me an smack built a kick-ass fire ;D total mad skills ae. Also this might sound stupid but i feel like my banter has faded completly. Although me an smackmanee had a gid wee chat , he helps me alot and i think nicole knew something was bothering me and give me her fags... it was a really nice thought. I missed Hannah tonight but ken i feel like i might be trying to spend to much time with her haha, if it was upto me i`d be with her all the time like. Anyway it was

• Me
• Smackmanee
• Nicole
• Deano
• Zander
• Scullion...? Maybe dean =)

I think that was it, i was pritty steaming tbh haha

nae photies D: aha but ken im not worried. Although if i ever need any i think i`d go steal Deans his are usually really funny =)

I think that`ll do it for me the now likes..... cheers if you bother`d to read my depressing memos haha. Also i do realise my spellings horrible aha